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I need to change my outlook starting now.

Tokyo

 Grand Arc Hanzomon

 THEY HAVE A BATHTUB

I'm loving my vacation so far. I can feel my skin coming back to life.

Trying to get rid of the dark circles that started forming when working in Seoul.

Q.Q

Life is good.

Feist - Inside and Out

This song opened up past memories of my childhood and college.
It made me feel oh so good inside. Personally, though, I don't think it's healthy
to keep my past in any high regard. However, it gave me perspective of the present and to live in this beautiful present.

My new favorite thing. 

http://graphicmag.kr/ 

I got excited all over again.

Recently, I was getting sick and tired of all the old things in my hard drive. Ironically, I feel that my computer is in sync with my mood. It crashed...it stopped working and I had to go the the apple store ( or more like the a# shop) to reboot and erase everything in my hard drive. Surprisingly, I didn't feel deep remorse or anger. I was more like ...."okay, do it!" I might regret this later, but for now, I am giddy over it. You may call me crazy. :)

It feels so refreshing to know that I can start new and not have to worry about what's important and what I should trash... Do I really need this?  Honestly, I'm a bit of a hoarder especially with odd things.
I remember I used to collect stamps (even ugly, useless, and boring ones), gel pens, notebooks ( i really liked papers of all sorts and the textures that they existed in), and panties....yes pretty, cute ones when I was really little. I used to think that they were too pretty to wear so I resorted to collecting them. My mom and sister found them in my cabinet and ridiculed me. I didn't care though. I think it was years later I was shocked to see that they were still there! I had completely forgotten about them. I quickly threw them away of course ( and they weren't used! I'm not that nasty).

1. because they were useless and sizes way to small. 
2. I had too many collections to keep up with this one. 
3. They didn't have the appeal they once did when I was younger. I guess my taste had become "more refined". HAHA

Anyways, My laptop feels like new is all I'm trying to say. I hope I don't make a clutter of this hard drive.

I plan on going to Japan. I have been racking my head about whether I should go visit family at home or stay on this side of the earth and save. I don't want to think anymore but just do. I remember when I used to just DO instead of just contemplating nonstop.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t4D3aGrLV6g&feature=fvhl

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gE3Zg_sa0iY&feature=related

So I recently talked with a friend who told me about this documentary about food consumption in America and what the food industry is pumping out to it's country. It definitely something to watch and reflect on.


http://www.foodincmovie.com/

       T shaped yellow heart? Yes, anything is possible in dreams. 

For some reason, I'm no longer the protagonist in my own dreams. Or  maybe figuratively I am, but I just haven't realized it yet.

  So, I am watching what seems to be an intense war occurring. The militia's (who were once people) mission is to steal the hearts of humankind making them emotionless. For what reason, I couldn't really figure out. The thing is, how they took the hearts out of individuals were with a huge machinery gun that sucked out a spiritual sort of yellow T-shaped essence.
   There is a mother, son, and undaunted daughter( Who at first, I thought was spoiled and annoying, but now realize was trying to find her own individuality and her identity). They are in an old, run-down storage room and eating some type of porridge/soup which looks delicious. I guess given the situation they were in, they were eating it like it was precious ambrosia. Therefore, enhancing the appearance of its taste.
  Later, the Mother is captured by the militia, and her heart is taken out. Somehow, the Mother becomes the leader of the whole brigade and sends out her mass heart suckers to capture the humans who still have their hearts, including her children. But instead of sucking their hearts out, she makes them sit in two different kumbayah-style circles.
 The rest is kind of a blur, but I do remember that the son was trying to lead the group of humans or organize them so they wouldn't do something irrational. However, the daughter tries to run away, and this starts an uproar among the other humans causing a  rebellion.
  As all hell breaks loose, people scrambling, the Mother takes action sending the militia to suck out everyone's heart. (I remember seeing in the background these spiritual T-shapes entering into the machinery. It was such an odd thing to see) The Mother seeks out the daughter specifically, because , ironic as it was with her heart no longer present, the Mother still had ill emotions towards the Daughter for her previous actions and the  pains she had caused her.

The last thing I remember was that the daughter was huddled amongst some poles near a wall. She was behind some sort of construction tables.

These dreams I have are getting more vivid. I actually like them, too.